Will I ever grow up?

I seem to be in a never ending downward spiral that is my life.  Its not that I think that I have a bad life, I have a great life.  I have a job, Im going to school, I have great freinds, I have a loving God.  So I don't have any reason to complain, which is not the reason for my post.  It just so happens that I've been thinking a lot about what life is and what life is going to do to me, and I realize that I don't think I'll ever grow up.  I have landed on a career choice that really seems to fit me well.  I am doing really well in my classes, which should help in me returning to the school that I really what to go to.  As I look at my life though, I realize that I will never really want what I have, Ill be content with what I have, I wont complain with what I have, I wont do anything that will comprimise my Christian life for what I want.  As I notice other peoples life, I sometimes wish I were them.  I look at other career choices and I wish I were doing that.  I have this perpetual feeling of what I have, isnt what I should have, but I've tried quite a few things out, and they dont seem to work as well as what I have planned for my life. 

Is this a normal thing?  Does everybody have this feeling in thier life?  Am I the only one who thinks that the choices they have made might be wrong even though they are working out so well?  Do I need to talk with someone to see if I am really happy with my choices, or just telling myself that I'm happy so I dont have to search anymore. 

I ask myself these questions and I pray about them, I've come to a conclusion that seems to work out well.  I used to have a huge conviction that God had a plan for you, he would reveal this plan to you, and if you choose something wrong, you would be screwed for the rest of your life.  I stressed out over this for a very long time.  I think it had an effect on my schooling and might be a reason that I took so long to figure out a career that worked well for me.  After three years of school I found the career that fits me best, but I still have doubts about whether its the right career in Gods eyes.  After contemplating this I came to the cunclusion that as long as you are living your life as best you can for God, your life will be in Gods plan 100%.  It really does not matter what you are doing career wise and what-not.  God has his plan for you, He knows what it will be, and He is not stressing out about if I chose the right career.  All I need to do is live, don't do things that are agains God's eternal will, and Gods plan will be complete. 

Like Dr. Brown said in chaple today, you hate hearing things that convict you.  He spoke about how he had problems when he was younger with reading Gods word.  I havent been reading the Bible as often as I would like too, and hearing the "Ten things that I wish Jesus never said" they made me think quite a bit about things I do that I should not. 

On top of that I have started to realize that I throw a lot of my responsibilities off and find distractions that keep me from keeping up with them. 

In all though I think its best that I noticed these things becuase it helps me realise the things that I need to work on, hopefully I will work on these things. 

On the brighter side of things quite a few things have been going in directions that I like to see.  I was able to get a job at Cedarville so I can stay in Ohio with my freinds and not have to go home!  All the friends that I was planning on staying with this summer have been getting thier jobs also so everything seems to be going really well with that.  All were waiting on now is to hear if we have the house, which is pretty much a definate.  One big things that sucks about not going home is I wont be able to see my friends back at home.  But I will have to go home for a check up on my leg, so during those days I'll hang out with who I can. 

Ahh so I'm back to school, which pretty much means I have lots of work to do, and I try and act like I do it, but I usually don't get all I want done. 

Though last night was nice, I got about 12 homework problems done for calculus III and 10 of them are not going to be graded, they were strictly for my benifit.  I never do those!

Kinda made for a bad day when I found out I had the wrong book for Circuits and Instrumentation.  I'm 2 editions off, and the authors arn't even the same.  so now I've gotta shell out a little over $100.00. 

Oh well, I'm glad to be back, and thats the main thing. 

I have returned to my city Cedarville. 

Let all of you proclaim these great and wonderfull tidings of joy.

Shout it as you make your way to class.

Greet others with the news of my return.

Let your banners wave high.

May your voiced ring clear.

For the day has come, this glorious day!

May all the world remember the day that The Fromnation returned.

So....I'm alive after my surgery, so no-one gets any of my valuble things.

I know you are all depressed over the loss of the chance of to have my things.....but oh well. 

But now I'm back on crutches, which sucks, but the surgery is supposed to help in the long run......supposed to....i hope that "doctor" is right. 

So in my free time I took an IQ test, turns out I've got a 124 for and IQ, what do you guys have?

Hmmmm?

HMMMMMMMMM?

Well if you want to know web.tickle.com its free so it fun too.

After that you can try a game at addicitnggames.com called pendulumeca its fun.  I have a high score of 3867 m so try and beat that.

You wont

I also got a screw from my leg from the operation......YAY!